And so it begins…

As we are suck at home for the unforeseen future I have decided to do something for myself.. BLOG! I have never really done this before and at a time like this I feel I need to get my thoughts and feeling down. Its like my own therapy. For those of you that know me well I have health anxiety. Its definiton is… “Health anxiety is an obsessive and irrational worry about having a serious medical condition. It’s also called illness anxiety, and was formerly called hypochondria. This condition is marked by a person’s imagination of physical symptoms of illness”. I have been dealing with this for along time and proud to say I have it under control with the help of medicine but all this COVID19 isnt making things better for me!

As I sit here this am and watch my kids play and watch the movie Frozen 2 I hear the song play Into the Unknown. That is totally what we are dealing with as we dont know what life will be like over the next days, weeks or months. We are all trying to prepare and make sure we have everything we need to get us through. It really just feels like we are in a horrible dream and I just want to wake up for it.I have decided the following… Limit my time on SOCIAL MEDIA! I have unfollowed people who I just dont want to see their posts about the virus. It makes my anxiety so much worse!

I found out on Friday that my school will be closed for two weeks. Then yesterday it was announced that my kids and husbands schools will be closed starting Wednesday. Last night while I laid in bed I started to create a schedule for the kids. Its going to be tough for them without seeing their teachers, friends and family. I havent told them yet and I don’t plan on it till tomorrow. It’s all just a lot to process right now and I dont even know how to mentally process it myself. BUT I hope and pray that all of this will be over sooner than we think and we will all just be better than before.